People notice it in my face, I see it my arms in pictures, and my jeans prove it all. I've gained seven pounds. For years, I was underweight at 98 pounds, but now I am a solid 105. The tricky thing about weight gain is that you never know how your body will store fat. Usually it is in the places you don't want. I wanted to share my weight gain story.
I know people from my past linger on my Instagram photos. I've posted bikini pictures, vaguely brought up my increased weight, and my face no longer has a cut jawline.
If you stay a weight for so long, your body deems that your normal. âSo, my body decided that 98 lbs was my new normal. Even when I graduate college and recovered mentally and emotionally, I could not crawl myself out of this unhealthy routine. My body knew that I functioned at 98, so my goodness it was going to stay there.
My doctor decided to prescribe me with hormonal birth control. It worked. I still had to push eating lots of calories, but after a few weeks, the pounds stuck. I could go to bed a certain weight and wake up with a similar number on the scale. Before, I could lose four pounds within the day. I got to the point where I could relax and not force feed, one of the best moments of my life in a long time.
I hope that I never return to a weight under 100lbs. I love calling myself thicc and feeling like a petite Kylie Jenner. There used to be a little voice in the back of mind that would tell me I looked best being that skinny, that the added fat would be an uglier transformation. I am so glad that I did not listen to that pip squeak.
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